I climbed a hill, I wanted to look down on you.

I am practicing what to say to kyle, it goes something like this:
I don't care if I ever talk to you again. It's not that I don't love you, it's not that I don't want to talk to you ever again, it's that I am physically unable to care anymore. I know that sounds dramatic, and ridiculous, but I'm not doing this again. And in a way, I want to say, I'm not doing this again, as in I'm going to call you and keep calling you as long as I want. But what i mean is, I am not doing this again. I am not letting myself fall madly in love with you to hear you say there's no point, and there's no future for us anyway, so why do we bother? I am so tired of hearing this. Just because you refuse to say I love you, doesn't mean it goes away. Just because you marry the perfect pretty mormon girl doesn't mean she will make you happy.
I can't care if I ever talk to you again. I just, I can't, anymore.