i was there for you when you were lonely, i was there when you were bad

I was there when you were sad.... This morning I woke up at 8 a.m. to write my paper. By ten I needed to take a nap, so I did, and now it's 1130 and I'm trying to understand why it is that I always make things difficult for myself. I think i'm mildly addicted to a drug, which worries me kind of to a large extent, but at the same time all I am thinking about is passing school and getting away away away from here, so it's like the life I'm making here doesn't even matter. I think it's healthy to be ready to build something up and then give it all away, I just can't bring myself to build it properly since the thing I'm building is only going away to people who absolutely don't care. I'd like for this to make sense to at least one person, just one person, and that would mean the world to me.

I'd like to see you but really I should stay away
And let you settle down, I've got no claims to your crown
I was the boss of you
And I loved you, you know I loved you...it's all over now...

And I was there for you when you were lonely
I was there when you were bad,
I was there when you were sad.
Now it's my time of need
I'm thinking, do I have to plead to get you by my side?


I'm going to make a list of good ideas and write them down as I go along, because it seems to me that I never have them when I'm supposed to.